Former US President Bill Clinton said his affair with former White House intern Monica Lewinsky was something he had done to deal with his fear.
The former president made the revelations while recording the mini-series "Hillary," which premiered on Friday on the Hulu streaming service. He reports on his wife's 2016 presidential campaign, life as State Secretary and thoughts on the Lewinsky scandal, reports Efe.
"Every life has pressure and disappointments, horrors, fears above all," said the former president.
"Things I've done to deal with my fears for years. I'm a completely different person from me, a lot of these things 20 years ago," he added, referring to the matter.
In one of the chapters of the Hulu mini-series, he said that he had spent years looking for distractions to better manage his fear.
"Maybe it'll just get older, but I hope it went through a lot too. But whatever I did was bad, but it wasn't – how can I think about the stupidest thing I could and do it ? " he said.
"It's not a defense, it's an explanation. I feel terrible."
Regarding the 1995-1997 incident, which came to light in 1998 and in which the House of Representatives initiated impeachment proceedings against him, Bill Clinton said that he had lied to his wife for the first time after several rejections until it became too obvious.
"I went and sat on the bed and talked to her. I told her exactly what happened when it happened. I said I feel terrible about it," he said, adding that what he was doing , "inexcusable" and cannot be justified.
Hillary Clinton said she was "devastated" and could not believe that her husband had lied to her.
The documentary also looks at the wedding therapy sessions they attended after the Lewinsky affair in which the former president said the decision was difficult but necessary.
"Consulting was one of the most difficult things I ever had to do, but it was necessary," he said.
Bill Clinton said he felt bad that the incident had wrongly defined Monica Lewinsky and added that he had watched her try to regain "normal life" over the years.
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